I've been called to Master this weekend to, "complete the formalities." I read that as shorthand for, it isn't working, best to go our own ways.
It's fair enough. His working life has switched to involve a lot of travelling which has combined with my own moving in to a new home to mean i haven't seen that much of Him these last few months. However He also has a strong hobby and that takes much of his holiday time. So ... not much time for Him to learn my life, set a few rules and enforce them. At the end of the day, this part of things isn't that high up His priority list ... and without that structure, i'm falling apart. i tried to wait for Him, but after a little over a year and a half, i'm crumbling towards depression and self destruction again and there is no sign that Master's situation will change, so that brings everything to an end, leaving only the formalities to be completed.
In amongst other difficulties, work have funded a few counselling sessions for me, so i'm not totally without support, but i'm certainly hurting and feeling very down.
i have already begun adverts on the usual channels, having changed the wording appropriately. Who knows what will happen, but i hold out no hopes; i daren't dream any dreams; it is once more an existance of one day at a time for me now.
England health history
Well, I've just has the result back in from the FOI request made to England. Most of the statistics are actually available for public view. Spurred on from the Scots response, I looked for the codes F65.5, Eu655, E22y2, E22y3 and E21y6 in the sheets.
The public data listed here on the HSE web site - and I am sad to report six occurances under F65.5...
In 1998-9 three men, two aged between 15-59 and one aged between 60-74 caused 157 bed days between them. They were all admitted as emergencies.
In 2000-1 one man between the age of 15-59 was admitted as an emergency and caused 10 bed days.
In 2001-2 two women between the ages of 15-59 were admitted as emergencies and ramped up four days between them.
To be honest, when you look at some of the other totals, this isn't actually very bad. Wales next.
The public data listed here on the HSE web site - and I am sad to report six occurances under F65.5...
In 1998-9 three men, two aged between 15-59 and one aged between 60-74 caused 157 bed days between them. They were all admitted as emergencies.
In 2000-1 one man between the age of 15-59 was admitted as an emergency and caused 10 bed days.
In 2001-2 two women between the ages of 15-59 were admitted as emergencies and ramped up four days between them.
To be honest, when you look at some of the other totals, this isn't actually very bad. Wales next.
Scotland, 10 year clean bill of BDSM health
I put in an FOI request about various requests made of the UK health service as a result of BDSM activities. The results came back, "there have been no cases where the INternaiton Classification of Diseses code for Sadomasochism (code F65.5) have been recorded since April 1997. We also examined our Practice Team Information database which contains information for the last four years on the reasons why patients in Scotland contact their General Practice. There are several codes which may identify the type of incident specified in your request (Read codes - Eu655 Masochism, E22y2 Sexual masochism, E22y3 Sexual sadism and E21y6 Masochistic personalisy disorder) however there were no instances where these codes have been recorded."
Basically, congratulations Scotland lifestylers on a sterling record of safe play.
Basically, congratulations Scotland lifestylers on a sterling record of safe play.
The Pet - Finishing the film
I am a bit dubious about the creative mind behind this film. Stevens' claims on the jacket and the start of the film seem odd. He claims millions of people in slavery, more than at any time in history, and the jacket claims the lifestyle to be underground, painting it as shocking. That seemed to me, to be the mind of someone who did not have much knowledge of the civilised scene that I know, where the word, "respect," feeds so much of our actions and thoughts.
The locations and the cinematography are quite something. Across the board from the luxury home right down to the dog kennels and the market place, it really got the angles right. The props were also well made and visually appealing. The focus on the pyramidial cage was a good signature, well chosen and it will probably live on long as a unique defining fingerprint.
The acting was wooden and very individualistic; the actors characters didn't interact well on a non-verbal level. It could have benefited from a much more natural attitude. In terms of the writing, it was hard and blunt. Looking at what little of Steve's career and credit list I can find, I can see why this might have been the case as, although a very skilled photographer, most of the subjects he seems to deal with are raw and tough. He has seen the side of unwilling slavery; the realities of human trafficking that are still present in the world that many lifestylers would rather not exist.
The dialogue needed a good injection of emotion; perhaps one might say, the woman's touch. Also, the progression of many of the interpersional sequences was unrealistically blunt and wrong footed. The film did settle down but the wooden acting never did leave and some of the concepts just didn't hold water when brought in to a fiction scenario which merged lifestyle and reality.
The fighting sequences were poorly choreographed and acted, relying on visual effects, editing and music to add the power that the acting lacked. Heightened conflict was poorly handled.
As a piece of entertainment that offers the uninitiated a glimpse in to the world of the lifestyler, it does not score very high. As a reminder to lifestylers that there is a gruesome world out there and that care must be taken when giving that all important gift of submission ... it scores highly.
The locations and the cinematography are quite something. Across the board from the luxury home right down to the dog kennels and the market place, it really got the angles right. The props were also well made and visually appealing. The focus on the pyramidial cage was a good signature, well chosen and it will probably live on long as a unique defining fingerprint.
The acting was wooden and very individualistic; the actors characters didn't interact well on a non-verbal level. It could have benefited from a much more natural attitude. In terms of the writing, it was hard and blunt. Looking at what little of Steve's career and credit list I can find, I can see why this might have been the case as, although a very skilled photographer, most of the subjects he seems to deal with are raw and tough. He has seen the side of unwilling slavery; the realities of human trafficking that are still present in the world that many lifestylers would rather not exist.
The dialogue needed a good injection of emotion; perhaps one might say, the woman's touch. Also, the progression of many of the interpersional sequences was unrealistically blunt and wrong footed. The film did settle down but the wooden acting never did leave and some of the concepts just didn't hold water when brought in to a fiction scenario which merged lifestyle and reality.
The fighting sequences were poorly choreographed and acted, relying on visual effects, editing and music to add the power that the acting lacked. Heightened conflict was poorly handled.
As a piece of entertainment that offers the uninitiated a glimpse in to the world of the lifestyler, it does not score very high. As a reminder to lifestylers that there is a gruesome world out there and that care must be taken when giving that all important gift of submission ... it scores highly.
Review - The Pet
I had already read many reviews about this film and they were all bad. It was because I am planning my own film; the script ready to off to a checking service; that I felt the need to watch this film. I therefore went for the special edition so I could access all the behind the scenes footage, interviews and everything else.
So far, the reviews have not let me down. My heart aches that they had this wonderful opportunity and it all went to the board. Maybe acting really is like this in the US; maybe people over there are really so unconnected with the film that they let seriously big gaps pass. If I make these mistakes with my own project, then somebody shoot me, please.
I got as far as the two talking over sushi and I had to stop the film. It was hurting me to watch it. The whole thing felt rushed, that included both the scene links, the dialogue and even the actors. Some of these people and the situations are so unbelievable, it is unreal. I could feel myself rewriting the dialogue in my head as it was playing. Perhaps I'll return to it later tonight.
So far, the reviews have not let me down. My heart aches that they had this wonderful opportunity and it all went to the board. Maybe acting really is like this in the US; maybe people over there are really so unconnected with the film that they let seriously big gaps pass. If I make these mistakes with my own project, then somebody shoot me, please.
I got as far as the two talking over sushi and I had to stop the film. It was hurting me to watch it. The whole thing felt rushed, that included both the scene links, the dialogue and even the actors. Some of these people and the situations are so unbelievable, it is unreal. I could feel myself rewriting the dialogue in my head as it was playing. Perhaps I'll return to it later tonight.
